one day we'll see the clear blue
beyond the grey sky

this song.
makes me think of the concert.
Zachy.
Bone.
screaming, singing.
you felt a part of something.
something worth being here for.

I want to breathe again.
I want to lie in summer grass, feet on the hot street,
with a cigarrette in hand and the boys singing in the back.
Warm days at Pendrey's, just laughing, living it up.
"Remember when the AC went out, oh man, that was hell!"
Yeah, I want to sit with a beer in hand and ride around in the 'Stang,
Collins and I screaming at the top of our lungs "STUPID GIRL!"

I want to run away to Jareds,
with Derek holding the baby ten feet away.
I miss sneaking screwdrivers here and there.
Speeding over speed bumps 'cause we were meant to fly.
I want to hear Led Zepplin in the house
and know that Steven is walking around in boxers singing along.

I want to be drunk at Bone's house.
And trip over the stairs and Ivan and..
Have a Cory take care of me and fall in love all over again.
I want to try all new things with wide, open eyes
with him and new-found friends 'cause "that's what it's all about."

I want to stay here forever and build a life other than my parents.
I want to go to school and become a writer, a novelist!
Lately, I've wanted to go to film school too, become a DIRECTOR!
I want to impress the world, show everyone how much they mean to me and,
make all those that love be loved in return
because that is what I've gained, and more I hope to learn.

Now another summer is approaching fast.
It will be [mostly] filled with new faces, new adventures.
New cars, new styles, new places.

And hey, I'll be driving by then.
A shiny-new licence, a shiny-not-so-new car.

As great as this sounds, can't you ever have the past?
Just for one day, can't it ever be as great as you remembered?

I don't know anymore.
I love you guys.