I love the way you see
the beauty in me
even when everything goes black

(there you go, Trav.)

The skies were bleeding..
the music was up
screaming, pleading boys..LET ME GET A DEAL

Let's leave, I need a cigarette..
James house to jam out.
"Simple kind of man" all in unison
And Zachy and Cory..
Singing, smiling..singing out to someone
something in the air, gin and coke and rum and champaign
singing at the top of your lungs, Steven you looked so happy
Like a rock star in our midst, ladies and gents these people are beautiful.
Look at the way they smile..
look at the way they love the music..

The way they make us love the music..
Singing, smiling..singing out to someone..

Passed out and you still came to see me.
Poor baby, I was so worried.
But you're up and about, I'm still lying around
I can't wait til' later.

The plans have gone a little hay-wire, but nothing we can't fix.
Tonight will be a night of brilliance and infinite possibilities..

So please, please, I'm running out of sympathy. I never said I'd take this lying down.

Hm. Vuh vuh valume. Kind of like VACCUM. Only..not at all. Sitting at home on this Friday night is such a drag.
I've got a tripping boyfriend..and thuurs a sober girlfriend.

Weak.

I think this is the last night we'll be keeping secrets
Trip..roll..sip......I bet your nose hurts, sorry for hitting it
It's to dying in anothers arms..all over the house
You're coming over? Promise?
Swear you'll hold me in your arms
Not in front of the kid

The tree is burning and yellow
The sun has bark and leaves

WHat would happen if everything you knew
or thought you knew
fell apart right in front of your eyes

What would go through your head
what do you think you'd of said
if she tore up your letters
and they set burning, aflame at your feet.
You're lying aflame at her feet.

She tried heroine. Too many firsts were with that woman.
How could you fall for anything else but us?
How could you come back after everything we said?
Wishful thinking with the worst intentions

How come you always smell the way I want you
With perfect skin and deepsea eyes
I dive in with all of me
Losing myself in all that you are

Sex becomes a love poem
I LOVE it I LOVE you, right?
But what comes first, man?
You going to suck my kiss or make a fist
or hit the bottle or off with your friends?
There are timberwolves at New Jersey.

Dude, do you realize
that when we look at the world
everything..nothing merges it all contradicts
Mommy takes a drag while lecturing healthy lungs.
You have it or you don't
DONT YOU? WELL?? DON'T WE?!

TriPpInG bOY..where are you
I type I type you lie you lie there waiting
literate and stylish, kissable and quiet,
that's what girls' dreams are made of
lying, lying on the floor in a puddle of sin
kick the grass cause she left ya
kiss the air cause she left ya
she left ya
she left ya

wait
they don't love you like i love you

I'm coming down. Down down down.
Where is he to bring me all the way up..Mmm higher..
Mmm harder..

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N O O N E H A S T O K N O W A B O U T T H I S
my fist vs. the bottle.

pure bliss. purest of 100% pure, I love you. Mmmm...

You are a ridiculous excuse for a person. A liar, a cheat, and apparently quite the drug addict. How about you stop fucking with boys' heads and being disgusting.

PARDON ME, WHILE I BURST

Bad mood. You never call.
I hate when your high, you just bring me down.
I NEED YOU TO HEAR<>I NEED YOU TO SEE
Trying my best to make this beautiful.
It's beautiful, you're beautiful, am I beautiful?
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THE WORLD AND IT'S PEOPLE'S MINDLESS GAMES

I'M THINKING SO MUCH DIFFERENTLY
[horrible feeling. youre with other girls. waiting for a call. are you attached at all. what's wrong with us today? i'm not supposed to feel this way..]

"You have a foundness for stars. But it's weird, like, they fit you if that makes sense"

I found a ring on my middle finger.
We're gonna be rich someday
and I'll buy you a personal jet.
It's not my fault, okay?
Something about your eyes makes me
want to promise you everything.

But I guess we'll end up in the slums
if we really ever end up at all.
Maybe we'll slip away, but somehow
I see myself with you right now and forever until whenever then.

A phone call to a friend in Okla.
To see about some activities
Forced apart for a year...
the 17th year of our lives spent apart
and afterwards not another second.

::sigh:: This is such a buzz kill..

She said she'd wait for me, but I can't make her see, that she's called to other skies, I can't be her place to hide.

"Embarassingly Wasted" is what they said.
Punching.
Floor surfing.
Shot shot beer beer.
Cigarettes..here, here..

Today: Downtown, 5 hours early.
Halcyon Tragedy..badass drumming.
7$ pizza..only got one piece
The Big Win, I hope you make it.
"You take everything too seriously."
Fuck yourself, but good job playing.

Come home: 5; they leave 2 hours later.

I saw a sign downtown with the word "BOOBS" written in large, bold letters.
I'm going to miss you, Austin, Texas...

Just to sit and listen to the music.
Let it set the pace for my every heartbeat.
I find our lives revolve around such moments.
Waiting for that instant where..
Between lips you can't see but you know them by heart
and legs between the sheets
whispered promises, hands gripped tight as it feels so good
where you look into your lovers eyes
and at that exact second..
the music picks up, your pulses quicken
and no one in the world is breathing but the two of you


..Love you, baby.

"Once you do it, you know, you're dead. Yeah, it'll never quite get out of your head.."
or something like that.

Don't try to get it.

Talk 'cause you have nothing to say
I'll show you my blue side
Where is my mind?
Back at the car next to the cigar.

Change positions 'cause "that's what it's all about"
Don't 'x' the box
Be careful with that yay
I'll call you tomorrow
Don't be such a stranger.
Toy with your anger.

Put down that meteor
The end is coming, and, and.
But where will I hide the pipe?
Turquoise ring, stars that sing.

You laugh like a duck.
I wanna dissapear in your closet.
What a puffy jacket,
Dude, he's throwing up in the front yard.
On your car, next to the cigar.
Don't be such a stranger, she'll toy with your anger.
You left your turquoise ring, like stars that sing..

Will you be my Valentine?

"Parting is all we know of Heaven and all we need of Hell." -Emily Dickenson

All my words are getting lost in these moments
between the sheets and telephone rings.
To be so attached,
to feen for something this much,
I bet you dream about it,
you couldn't sleep without it..

And wanting to change
is just part of the game.
At the end of that cigarette
you will still feel the same.
Only a little less attached, a little off the ground.
So just drive through the night,
think about when I'm gone,
and you'll sing us a song
but it won't be for long.
'Cause you'll find you a star
and like me, it is far.
These words from me, keep them 'til I come home

Yeah, I swear I'll come home
and you won't be alone, baby.
And try not to forget those days in your room
when we laughed and we smiled, babe, wasn't it perfect?
There's 30 more minutes, her foot's out the door.
Yeah, the bottle's half-empty, we've been here before
Don't forget...

This pen is faded. It no longer writes symphony.
This hand, no longer steady, now shakes at every word uttered.
My only motivation is the touch of your skin
But I keep repeating that over and again

I want to write what they all will praise.
I want to say something worth telling to your lover in the darkest of hours inbetween grins and your skin on the sheets.
I want to tell everyone how love can really be
Like the sky and the stars, every single shade, every texture
I want to describe each aspect to let you know..to know anything worth knowing.

One day.

Oklahoma City, Oklahoma.
[where the..um..wind comes sweeping down the plains?]

Eyes so red. Mind blown.
I'm leaving in a few months.
I swear on everything I have I'll be back in a year. Come back for college.
I'll visit so much, every fucking chance I get.
I won't forget a one of you. Not a single day will go by when I won't miss all your faces.

A touch that you can really feel
(And felt the flutter underneath your skin)
The brokenness inside
(You stood in glowing rooms)
(The light dripping from both of you)
As hope and less collide
(And nothing since has felt as radiant or real)
And nothing is real
Love, there's nothing more I want
Than just one night
That’s free of doubt and sadness

(i love you)

SUPERBOWL SUNDAY!!
...in which Collins and I are boycotting.

Yes, yes it's true. Being that we are both grounded and not at the SB party with the Crew, we are sitting at our computers NOT watching the SUPER BOWL. TAKE THAT!

::sigh:: I'm hungry..